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[nola_quicksilver]

I'm thinking of getting this as my next tattoo. Thoughts, opinions?

Comments

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

He's good. He's buying geeky little chess pieces that look like X-Men and other people we know if our old lives. It's weird and cute, like him.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

That’s so weird and cute. I know you’re not even a little doing this for me so it’s weird of me to say, but thanks for being there for him.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

I'm 100% doing this for me, but the more people who care about him, the better.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

I’ll probably care from afar, but I care. I’m really happy you guys are good though!

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

Is it weird for you, seeing us?

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

Not you. Sam.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

I kind of meant us being a couple, but I got you.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

Yeah, that’s weird. I get jealous even though I’m not interested, and I don’t like that jealousy. And I don’t get your life, and so probably we know very different Scotts. And I’m never going to be who he wants me to be. And where I’m from, we were just definitely going to fall in love, but where you’re from we were married or whatever, and I died on him or whatever. And I don’t know how to navigate that. It’s overwhelming and confusing and upsetting. For both of us probably. So it’s not even that he’s with you, it’s just that we know each other in ways and feel things for each other that don’t even match. I don’t know what to do about it.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

I really feel you, to some extent. I'm going through some of that with Dani, who feels so much like my sister sometimes and not at all the rest of the time. It's a mind fuck and a hard one, and I'm sorry it's happening at all to any of us.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

It’s so hard. For all of us. I don’t know how to make it better.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

I don't know if there's a way to make it better. I'm not going to look at Dani and not almost see my Wanda. And you're not going to look at Sam and not think of your Scott.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

And he’s not going to look at me and not see a whole life I don’t know.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

But sometimes it's good to have extra incentive to make the most of a fresh start. Maybe you wouldn't have this connection with Dani if Scott had been your Scott.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

Do you feel like this is a fresh start?

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

It could be.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

That’s exciting, right?

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

It is, but confusing too. I don't know whether to embrace it or keep trying to figure out what's going on.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

It feels like we're not in danger.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

I agree. But false sense of security is a thing too. It's stupid and complicated.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

But we don't even know what to look for.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

I know. It's idiotic.

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

Has it been like this for you before?

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

You mean have I been in another reality?

Re: Katie

[nola_jeangrey]

No, trying to live while waiting for a threat you don't know and can't do anything about.

Re: Katie

[nola_quicksilver]

Oh, that! Many times.